I Felt

When I saw you
If you were really even there
I felt…I felt
Compelled to move closer
But as I approached
You moved away
Into the deep dark abyss of the waters
But then an emotion came over me
I felt so very anxious to move closer
So I ran
But the faster i attempted to move
The faster you moved away
And the slower i moved in the end.
Suddenly you stopped and turned to me
I felt blessed…
blessed… yeah that’s the word
I felt blessed by your beauty
Then you were in my arms in an instant
I then felt passion
I stared in awe and again felt blessed
I felt blessed to behold a goddess in my arms
As I pulled you closer i felt it again
Anxiousness
I felt anxious to press your skin to mine
And when i did I felt warm
I felt the warmth of your beauty course through my cold dark body
I then felt the most powerful thing I’ve ever felt
I felt…
LOVE
I felt almost as if it were taboo
…Me loving a Goddess
But i didn’t care
For you loved me in return
As i pulled you closer to me
I felt as if we were one
But most importantly I felt…
With you I felt…
COMPLETE

Father Father

In
Memory
Of
Dwight Wayne Alexander Sr.

This is for you, my father, the person who inspires me so much.
I know so little about you.
I never got the chance to know you.
We’ve never played baseball like father and son do.
I’m here writing this poem,
Though you cannot read it.
It’s been 15 years since we’ve seen each other.
It’s been 15 years since you left us.
Now I’m in High school,
Doing every thing that you could have wanted.
I’m in band and I study art,
Not your art though.
I do not express myself on canvas,
My expressions are in these words that I write to you,
My father the person, who inspires me so much.
I know so little about you.

Raiokeigai Kyo(u)

okay…well…As those who know me personally know…My nickname is Kyo…And I say that a man name Akashi Keiji(R.I.P. 5/24/02) gave me my nickname. But what most people don’t know is that he did not name me Kyo. He named me Kyou… I changed it because I do not think I live up to the honor of being named “Today” which is what Kyou means in Japanese…Instead I settled for Kyo which means “Pride”… Maybe one day I’ll change it…I don’t know…it depends on if I feel I live up to it or not…For now “Pride” will do just fine for me.

Now…Also those of you who know me personally know that when I use the first name Kyo…I don the Family name Raiokeigai. I do this for the way the name works…It’s much like how Kyo and Kyou work. same pronunciation…different meaning and different Kanji. One meaning for Raiokeigai is “Lies in Ruin”. The other meaning is almost like a proverb. The second meaning for Raiokeigai is “defeat in the pleasure of meeting”, Which can be taken in many different ways.